Day In, Day Out...
I see the the most beautiful things this life can offer
I see its ugly side just as well.
Everyday is suppose to be a Day of living in the moments that were given to us to mold in shape our characters, build them into landmarks, great examples to our generation and be able to pass down our ways to upcoming generations.
I live to be the Hero of our Future. I write things to help the young ones see the positives of life...I reached the point in my road where The positives are either on somebody else's path or to far ahead for me to see...I stop.
I want to give up and I don't...A split in my decision making.
Just as the split or crack in my heart was created awhile back tried to be healed but reopens from time to time....
Yes a girl Had apart in this.....But she didn't make the wound by herself....It began way before her....Parents 1st, then school, students in school being jerks, and then the women I've come across...Just people in General tore my heart more than anything...
So my hurt has been holed up placed in a solitary confinement....
Thrown into a small room inside me.
The more pain I feel or hurt I throw it in the room with the other crap...
Piling and Piling And Piling...
Until the door flys off its hinges and lets the monsters of hurt loose
Its almost like a gas, a combined Gas of Anger and Depression
Mixing as it enters My soul
Creating an explosive chemical reaction
Scaring the people around and making them want to take cover
The controllable has know become uncontrollable
Its a riot happening inside here
The lights that were in there are blowing out or being busted by the deadly gas
This is No Joke
No Hahas' Lols' maybe some OmGs'
The Gas melts away the inhibitors
Kidnaps the Good Conscience
Takes the joy and burns it alive
Takes Away the Idea Of wanting to be the hero in replacing it with the Idea of Being the Villain
Make Room For the BAd GuY
A Turn for the Best?
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whoa. I generally try to comment on people's blogs, cause i like when people comment mine. I know who you are talking about. hmm. I really dont' know what to say, or how to say it. I know you are hurting, God has said "No" to you yet again, this time, in the form of a young girl. But, maybe God has something way better in mind. I'm not as poetic when I write, but I have written a blog similar to this. I believe i deleted it from facebook, but it still sits on the wall of myspace. Mike Dee, you are a nice guy. You are talented, and from what I hear, funny too. You don't know me personally, I tend to fade in the background that way, but i have talked to you a little online before. Let me offer some advice. Let go of the hurt. If you hold on to it, it tears you up, shreds your soul. You become a less than desirable person, and it is just...bad. We all have past hurts, but if we hold on to them, we can't experience the good, the freedom, we are always held back. I know you struggle with depression, as do most people, and most your guys. It is a vile beast, a brother to the devil i believe. Just, hang on to God, as hard as that sounds, and just let go of the baggage that is pulling you down. I'll pray for you.~MP
As you are well aware of this world is full of wrongs and good people get hurt. There is so much pain, despair, hopelessness. I used to be drug through the dark kicking and screaming. The shadows of this world were eating my very soul and began to lose sight of being the hero like you. Sometimes I still happens. But something I realized yesterday is that there are only two courses in life we can take, either the path of good or the path of evil. The Great Adversary would be content to have you inactive, but would have a grand ol' time if you decide to join his Dark Side. But you are a good man. A man I respect and love like my own brother. So I know the villian inside of you will be put to death and you'll be the hero you are capable of being. As for me I've decided to turn all the darkness, all the negatives, all the pain and torment into tools to fight the Good Fight. If God can take evil and use it for His will, then we ought to take the bads in our lives and find a way to use them for good. This is what I'm trying to do: turning the Night itself into a weapon against the forces of darkness. And I know you can do it to. The Son of Death and Umbrus, you and me...we can take the dark and shine forth the light. I know it.
Wow...amazing stuff Dakotah, but totally true.
Mike, you are a great guy. I think you are awesome. I haven't got to hang out with you as much as I'd like..but I hope I can soon.
Anyway I don't really have any awesome advice, other than to keep fighting the fight. The easy way would be the villain, as beautiful and appealing as it may appear...but the Righteous are held high, and will always be the true winner, whether the world tells them they are or not.
Keep the posts coming, and keep fighting for the good side. There is only so much we can do, don't ever give up, but realize when we are down or do fall, God is right there ready to pull us back in. He will never leave nor forsake you!
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