Real Superheroes Die Young or Live long enough to see themselves become the villian...

Warning: If you haven't seen the stories of Hancock or The Dark Knight there may be spoilers in this blog.

So originally I was gonna continue the story with an event that happened later on that evening...
But since then certain things (I should say certain superheroes) have changed the way "I" think about things. There's only one person and one being that actually has any say in how you will turnout.... God and You! You can impact or inspire the change of others...But you can't make them change.

Not every battle can be won. We can't have everything we hope for. In no way should it stop us from attempting to obtain our dreams or the things we want. If anything it should be a reason to try harder.

I watched Hancock's tale. Saw that he had a dramatic change of character by the end. Which inspires a Hero like myself to want to change for the better...but also showed me that being a Hero there must be insane sacrifices. From sacrificing the way you are or things you want.
So for me, this is as much exciting as it is frightening.( We will get into that a little bit more later)

Sacrifice. The Dark Knight knows this very well. Hancock and Mr Wayne had to sacrifice something I was dying to find.....Love. Both of them couldn't be with the woman they were in love with because of their livelihoods...and its no different for me at the moment.

Just like them....With or without it I have a job to do.
People may not like what I am or What I do....
This is where these two Men of Justice made their Impact on My Duty
When the people You are trying to help disagree with your mission....
I have to let them Disagree and continue to do what is Right.

Mike Dee can't give up just because you Don't listen or because you're not into or don't like his line of work..

He Has to endure.
And so he shall...

Real super heroes Die young

Clark Kent, Bruce Wayne,.....Mike Dee

Mike in his normal life doesn't expect the enemy to know his weaknesses, but unfournately he knows Mike Dee Very well..
The Day starts of with our normal being twenty minutes late to work and also burning up without the A/C to keep the sweat from forming on his body. So the long day begins with a wet shirt and a tune stuck in his head from his trusty ipod. Time slowed down as if the world was trying to toture him by making him feel stuck at his dead end job..Good plan but he can take it no problem. The Shift ends later then the awaited sooner...
He hops in his Infernus Corolla and his journey for home ended before he could realize he was driving. There's something that is weakening our average joe hero...There is something not right about...something. He can't figure out what it is and just lets go unquestioned.
So he opens the door and the training must begin. Picks up his guitar, which is becoming apart of his arsenal, and trains until his fingers are sore and he feels his eyes getting heavy...
As he rests, his sisters comes to mind...and his Big brother senses are tingling and the weak feeling he was getting earlier comes back stronger than ever...

He calls both their cellphones but they can't be reached...so he calls home his mother picks up the phone and explains to him she has taken away their phone because of the evil Deeds they have done...He talks to one and knows she is not as innocent as she seems but gives her a little advice..."Respect your mom she loves you"

When he talks to the oldest sister...He is weaker and becomes almost powerless as he finds out the evil Deed she has done...A piece of kryptonite jabbed into his chest....She has no idea that she is killing him inside with her foolish acts of self-indulgence....
"You are smarter than that, I know you are.." he says.
He begins to tell her about how guys should talk to girls and what she should look for and not look for...and how to use her brain....
and tells her I'm only looking out for you and I love you.
He also tells her the reason he does his superhero work...
For God and my two little sisters. To make the world a better place for mine and everybody Else's siblings...
He hopes he talked some sense into her rebellious skull and maybe she wont be another Stereotype......

Stereotypes

Later that evening another attack to the normal Mike Dee....
To be continued....

A turn for the Best?

Day In, Day Out...

I see the the most beautiful things this life can offer
I see its ugly side just as well.
Everyday is suppose to be a Day of living in the moments that were given to us to mold in shape our characters, build them into landmarks, great examples to our generation and be able to pass down our ways to upcoming generations.

I live to be the Hero of our Future. I write things to help the young ones see the positives of life...I reached the point in my road where The positives are either on somebody else's path or to far ahead for me to see...I stop.
I want to give up and I don't...A split in my decision making.
Just as the split or crack in my heart was created awhile back tried to be healed but reopens from time to time....
Yes a girl Had apart in this.....But she didn't make the wound by herself....It began way before her....Parents 1st, then school, students in school being jerks, and then the women I've come across...Just people in General tore my heart more than anything...

So my hurt has been holed up placed in a solitary confinement....
Thrown into a small room inside me.
The more pain I feel or hurt I throw it in the room with the other crap...
Piling and Piling And Piling...
Until the door flys off its hinges and lets the monsters of hurt loose
Its almost like a gas, a combined Gas of Anger and Depression
Mixing as it enters My soul
Creating an explosive chemical reaction
Scaring the people around and making them want to take cover
The controllable has know become uncontrollable
Its a riot happening inside here
The lights that were in there are blowing out or being busted by the deadly gas
This is No Joke
No Hahas' Lols' maybe some OmGs'
The Gas melts away the inhibitors
Kidnaps the Good Conscience
Takes the joy and burns it alive
Takes Away the Idea Of wanting to be the hero in replacing it with the Idea of Being the Villain
Make Room For the BAd GuY
A Turn for the Best?

Tears Speak louder than words

One night a group of men begin a session of opening up to each other. 4 good friends. We will give the letters for names. There names are H,A,D, and J. H tells his tale of how he balances his feelings. Well the feelings he had for a special lady in his life went from like to really dislike but a this very moment he is in the middle and could careless. A understands his story so well and could say they almost had the same chapter (but his story was way deeper and alot more painful.) So H says she told him" We are going on separate paths and it wouldn't work out." Well, A who understand his position, and begins to notice his pain from the past came back to haunt him harder than before. He feels it like it Just happened yesterday and is angry at the female species once again. So H continues his story to D and J...But A is reliving every moment all over again with the girl he thought would be his...A remembers her kiss, her everything, and Most definitely her lies. Her lies not only came from her words but from her actions. A believed his journey for love was finally over. A and this Girl spent so much time together...A was even asked to go to her mother's house for Christmas and he did so... A didn't think about anything but her...Every night the girl of his dreams would kiss him Goodnight. A didn't know what the this Girl had in her mind when she came to him one night crying saying "I don't want to lose you"
A asked "Why would you say something like that?" And pulled her close and comforted her. A hasn't seen this scene in awhile...After the Christmas getaway with this girl he had grown so close to...A decided he would do anything to be with her...She made it seem like she wanted him to stay after all she was still kissing him goodnight...But A didn't realize he was actually sharing his story with H, D, and J. They all felt some of the pain A was feeling. The girl woke up one morning and thought to herself(After all A had done...The sacrifices! he was pretty much homeless just to reside in her presence!) She had finally thought about the paths they were on and how they were different....She comes to him and says we need to talk and her words spoke different from her kisses. She said "We are going on separate paths and it wouldn't work out."
So his pain flows from his eyes...And he tells her...His deepest feelings and she lets it bounce off of her with no emotion. A can't tell up from down! He doesn't know whats going on... H,D, and J are listening to his hurt and can't believe this Girl was capable of causing such Damage...She fooled them as she fooled A with a mask of sweet and Innocent, when her true identity was something far more darker. A recently found out she is with another Guy and Finally decides to bid farewell to that friendship built on lies....After A finishes his story and goes for a ride inside his beat up car turns Up the music and lets his emotions sing along...lets his Tears speak louder than words! A held all his pain in...He thought it was weakness when his tears tried talking to him. He kept Them bottled in....But the bottle exploded.....Tears showed him the memories of his absent father, is horrible childhood, and most all his relationship with women....A cried and gasped for air....Screaming into his steering wheel...Y!!!!!! The tears fell even more....and Began to calm him down...You'll be ok they said...

Tears aren't a sign of weakness....And if you just take the time to listen you'll understand what they really represent...

Love or..

In her midst
My heart slips into a bottomless pit
Of undying memories I would kill to forget
Words dance on my tongue I bite to keep this love caged like a pit-
bull Sit boy, put me down No hope can't Cope with being Lovesick
Can't Tell which is worst Death's fingertips or Love's Lips
But Before I jump on The love Boat Ill hold to death's grip
THey say everything deserves a second chance
But unless im in her arms Don't think Ill hold hands with Love again
Which would make me and they guy who holds My Fate Best Friends
Love? Or The End?

Smiling at Death

Driving in the pitch black darkness, when the night is torn into two by two headlights. Its an Old dusty truck and it starts to catch up to me, in my mind I ask myself a question "what if this is the night I Die? Will this unidentifiable truck host Mike Dee's waited killer?" So after Give myself a mental interrogation...I smile. As I turn down the street of where I live, the old nasty truck keeps straight. The smile of hope turns into a face of disappointment. A long time ago, I use to get this very creepy sinking feeling...That this poor body will release this soul of mine. And recently I had a dream(Haha I will spare you the ridiculous details) at the end it said(If I would've died today, I would've accomplished nothing." So is this a message to me is it my subconscious talking to me, or is it just a dream? These words bring that creepy sinking feeling back with a force...

I start to think of a chorus from a song of one my favorite artists Royce Da 5'9

Death is certainly gon' catch you
Whoever especially you will be left hurt
This is the cold, harshness of life
Just when it unfolds you lucky to grow old - life!

Well If you are reading this, I want you to know you are one of the people I truly care about you and want you to know these thoughts of mine...So the question I ask you..If you knew I was gonna Pass Away...What would you say to me? Any last thoughts? Do you regret the time we shared?Or just regrets that have to do with me period? Has there been something you been meaning to tell me? Any lies you told me that you would like to reveal? Take your time but give me your answer or answers ASAP. You can leave them as a comment on here or If you want to keep them between me and you just write me...

Distracted

Ok imagine this...
A young kid holding his/her parents' hand walking down a sidewalk and a big city with a lot of sights to be seen. The parent has an awesome day planned for the child and wants to show him/her a lot of things. Before the journey begins the child sees a candy shop. That has everything a sweet tooth could desire. The kid screams "I want to go there!" The parent replies"You can go there but if you do we will have to do what i want to do another time, So which do you want to do?" The kid see that candy store and wants nothing more. So the kid obviously chooses the candy shop postponing the awesome day the parent had planned for/him/her.....

Now take the kid out, and put yourself there. Take the parent out, and put God there. Take the big city out, and put the the world there. Take that measly day and put your life there! Turn that candy shop to A place where you can get what you desire most but it also can be turned into a place of sin. Picture God looking down to you as his child and telling you" You can Go there but I want to give you something else! So it's up to you, Do you want to do What I have planned For your life, or feed yourself on your own selfish desires?"

Tonight, was an eye opener. Tonight I talked with two good friends of mine(Dan and James) Totally brought to my attention that I have been distracted lately. Looking towards that candy shop trying to get what I want...when its this life That I have isn't even close to being about me or my wants....The Question should be what is it that he wants? And Am I willing to put away my desires for his will?